I've been doing alot if thinking recently. After watching a show on weight loss surgery. It's made me dig deep and accept I have a horrible relationship with food. Something has to change and I'm tye only one that can change it. I am staying on this meal plan no more cheating or slacking I now it works I just have to stay strong and stick to it. I have to regain my life and mobility so I can go on walks and drop this weight. I also have to learn to love myself even at this size and relize I'm worth it it's ok to buy myself a new top or makeup I can still be beautiful now and work towards a healthier me. I struggle with spending money on myself because I feel I'm not worth it or why waste the money because if I follow eating like I should it won't fit for long.
